In my absolute determination to do things right with God, I recognise that I no doubt get it wrong quite often. I can look back on life and see clearly times when I was convinced that what I was launching into, be it a job, a career move or a ministry opportunity was exactly where God wanted me to be. I thought I was in the centre of His will.
But I wasn’t. All I had done was convince myself that I was in the centre of His will. They can be two very different places.
‘When we covet something contrary to God’s will for us, God will often give it to us; His answer is according to the idols resident in our heart. He does this to ultimately recapture our heart’ [John Bevere, Drawing Near]
Now there’s a tough thought to mull over. Those things we really want to see in our life, why do we really want to see them in our life? Are we coveting something that is not actually meant for us? This could be anything that is actually becoming a substitute to just knowing God and worshipping Him – a position, a ministry, a calling, an object of desire.
SOMETIMES WE ARE WRONG BUT JUST WON’T ADMIT IT.
Maybe we would even nod our head in agreement with that statement but not actually admit that it might be talking about ourselves. After all, it’s usually someone else who is wrong.
I have learned that I need to consider certain things when I am convinced that I am truly in the will of God:
- am I spending my time trying to convince others of the same thing?
- am I unhappy that people I trust don’t agree with what I think?
- am I holding on so tight to my own viewpoint that seeing or hearing any other just seems wrong?
- from what position is this feeling of being in God’s will coming from – have I been hurt, feel let down by leaders, could I be carrying an offence, have I removed myself from being ‘undercover’ of church leadership?
How about you? If we said ‘yes’ to these then we need to pray. We must check our motives. The condition of our heart determines the condition of our lives. It influences how we think and therefore influences the decisions that we make, which can then become slightly skewed if our heart is not right.
Don’t get me wrong. We might be exactly where God wants us. My own experience would say that most times we are where we think God wants us to be but actually we are not where God wants us to be, instead we are trying to convince God that we are in His perfect will. Not the same.
Jesus put it like this ‘These people draw near Me with their mouths and honour Me with their lips, but their hearts hold off and are far away from Me’ [Matthew 15:8]
I guess I’m saying be careful. Let’s not self-appoint ourselves to new roles. Let’s not be in a hurry to make big decisions. If it truly is God’s will, then with or without our help He can bring it about. Our role in all this is simple – stay connected to His body, draw near to Him, honour Him with our hearts, for our own benefit and for the benefit of those around us.
[These are just my thoughts, doesn’t make them right. What do you think about the challenge of being God’s will for your life? How do you know if you are right or not? How easy do you find it to admit that you were wrong?]