In the Garden of Gethsemane Jesus felt the weight of what was awaiting him. Scripture describes that the burden caused him to sweat drops of blood.
He was about to carry my sin. And the sin of everyone else too. My sin, the shame that goes with it, the hurt, the pain and the guilt. I can find that hard enough to carry as one person, what a weight to carry for all of humankind.
Yet he did so willingly.
Where I might back down from such responsibility, Jesus took up that burden and carried it, on purpose.
Where I might only think of what’s comfortable for me or the thing which brings me most fulfilment, Jesus chose to do what would bring comfort and fulfilment to us.
When I might only do what I will do, what I deem to be best for me, Jesus laid down his will and went with what his Heavenly Father was asking.
Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done [Luke 22:42]
In response, especially as I have decide to follow Hin, my life must acknowledge the cost, the weight of the cross that Jesus carried, the means by which he set me free.
He loved me and demonstrated that love with an overwhelming act. I reflect and ask a difficult question: Why am I so stubborn at times in holding on to things and behaviours that don’t demonstrate my love for Jesus but are more about a love for what I want and enjoy?
I am free because of Jesus. I am loved unconditionally by Jesus. My sins have been removed and are forgotten because of Jesus.
There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus [Romans 8:1]
Lord let my life reflect that freedom and be the best it can be for you. Amen.